It has been nearly two weeks since I last posted about a possibility of an adoption. I have been waiting to post for exciting news, but nothing. Our social worker called last Sunday only to tell us 1-the mother is still in the hospital because of her high blood pressure. I don't feel very promising about this entire situation, but we try to keep our hopes up without keeping our hopes up. 2-there is another mother possibly wanting to adopt her baby out, but she is only 6 weeks along.
I get so very frustrated with this entire thing. But amidst it all, I TRY to stay positive. I have a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ! Both mine and Matt's patriarchal blessings say we will be parents. I guess that is the naivety of youth. You grow up seeing women pregnant and young babies being blessed and so on and so forth. I had no idea I would ever have a hard time getting pregnant. I keep questioning God on the injustices: I am a pretty good woman trying to do the right things, and I can't get pregnant. Young girls slip up once, women in prison, the woman with 20 kids, pregnant. Why?? Why not me?? I don't know if I will ever understand or comprehend, but I know there is a plan greater than me. I know I am being watched over and loved.
Thank you all for your prayers! I can't even tell you what it has meant to me! I have felt so much comfort and support over these last two weeks! I know I would not have been able to be so strong, so comforted, so at peace with things without the power of prayer! Thank you again and again!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Please send us your prayers!!
I guess I was getting complacent in life because we just got our pot stirred. We are in desperate need of everyone's prayers! I may even be jumping the gun on this, as Matt is on the phone right now with our social worker, but one of my first thoughts was, I really just need as many prayers and words of encouragement as possible!
My Mother-in-law called about 30 minutes ago. She said they were all at church and Dad's phone went off. Typically, they don't even take their cell phones to church, but it just so happened it was in his pocket and even on. Well, it was our social worker with a lead on a baby. Mom left church to call us, it was that big of a deal. So, here is the scoop:
The mom is going back to jail on a probation violation. She is pregnant with her third child due in 6 weeks, but she has high blood pressure so there is a very good chance the baby will be born early. The Grandmother is already raising her two previous children and will not raise a third. The mom does not want social services to come in and take the baby. The thing that really scares me is the mother was a methamphetamine user while pregnant. (Even though it has only been about 30 minutes, I already feel like a somewhat expert on meth and babies.) We have been on the phone with our social worker and the lady who works out at the prison since. This looks so promising, and I am so scared! As I said, I was getting complacent in life. I was planning a trip to Europe next year. I thought I had all of my ducks in a row.
If I am supposed to be the mother of this child, God will prepare a way. So many of you have said, "Wow Brandy. You are so brave." But I can tell you this much, I am not feeling brave right now. I am scared!! Please pray that whatever is supposed to happen, will happen. And please pray for the mother of this precious little one that she may have an open mind and be able to make the right decisions for her and baby, whatever that is right now. Thank you for your constant support and friendship! I love you all!!
My Mother-in-law called about 30 minutes ago. She said they were all at church and Dad's phone went off. Typically, they don't even take their cell phones to church, but it just so happened it was in his pocket and even on. Well, it was our social worker with a lead on a baby. Mom left church to call us, it was that big of a deal. So, here is the scoop:
The mom is going back to jail on a probation violation. She is pregnant with her third child due in 6 weeks, but she has high blood pressure so there is a very good chance the baby will be born early. The Grandmother is already raising her two previous children and will not raise a third. The mom does not want social services to come in and take the baby. The thing that really scares me is the mother was a methamphetamine user while pregnant. (Even though it has only been about 30 minutes, I already feel like a somewhat expert on meth and babies.) We have been on the phone with our social worker and the lady who works out at the prison since. This looks so promising, and I am so scared! As I said, I was getting complacent in life. I was planning a trip to Europe next year. I thought I had all of my ducks in a row.
If I am supposed to be the mother of this child, God will prepare a way. So many of you have said, "Wow Brandy. You are so brave." But I can tell you this much, I am not feeling brave right now. I am scared!! Please pray that whatever is supposed to happen, will happen. And please pray for the mother of this precious little one that she may have an open mind and be able to make the right decisions for her and baby, whatever that is right now. Thank you for your constant support and friendship! I love you all!!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
The Mom Song
I was introduced to this a few months ago, but just forgot to post it. I remember when I was younger I promised myself I would never say the corny things my Mom did, but I find myself saying them constantly! What a funny day when you wake up and realize, you have turned into your Mom! Have a great day everyone, and enjoy a laugh on me! Love ya!
A laugh is a smile that bursts. ~Mary H. Waldrip
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Teacher Appreciation and Mother's Day
The first part of my Grams conversation with me always goes about the same:
Grams: So, what is new?
B: Nothing. We have a pretty boring life, same stuff, differant day.
Grams: Honey, you don't know what boring is until you have our lives!
I love my Grams soo much!!! So here is an update on my week, very ordinary. Just the way I like it!
One of my favorite pics of me and my Mommy! (I'm pretty sure she is going to shoot me for this one!!)
Grams: So, what is new?
B: Nothing. We have a pretty boring life, same stuff, differant day.
Grams: Honey, you don't know what boring is until you have our lives!
I love my Grams soo much!!! So here is an update on my week, very ordinary. Just the way I like it!
This last week was teacher appreciation week. Last year we got a key chain. Now, I am not saying this was bad by any means, afterall, it was just nice to be recognized. This year was so much better! There was a gift on my desk everyday of the week:
Monday: A coffee cup with coffee, hot chocolate and little chocolate mints (not sure yet what to do with the coffee!)
Tuesday: $10 gift card to Barnes and Noble
Wednesday: A polo shirt with the school's logo on it
Thursday: A really nice, engraved pen with my name on it
Friday: A picture frame/clock thing and our managers threw us a BBQ!! Wow!! I was so impressed! It was so nice to be appreciated! It wasn't the objects themselves that made so much of an impact, but the thought of it! Thank you! Thank you to my teachers of the past and to those who have impacted me in any way!
And the last thing I want to say is Happy Mother's Day! Thank you for being such spectacular, caring mothers to the children of the future! It is not easy, I am sure of it, but you are doing the most important thing possible and that is loving your children! Thank you so very much! One thing I have realized is that you don't have to be a mother to celebrate. Sure, I am a future Mom, but I can be a mom in other ways. (We learned this lesson from Sheri Dew, former member of the General RS). I also want to give a special shout out to my Mom! I am, by and large, the woman I am today because of her loving, caring and tender ways! Thanks mom! I love you so very much Mom!!
One of my favorite pics of me and my Mommy! (I'm pretty sure she is going to shoot me for this one!!)
Tagged: Take 2
A - Z Tag
A: Attached or Single- Attached . . . Married for 3 1/2 years to the cutest boy ever!
B: Best Friend- Matt of course!
C: Cake or Pie- I am going to have to say cake, preferably chocolate!
D: Day of Choice- Saturday. We both have it off and get to spend it together!
E: Essential Items- Cell phone, computer, a good book
F: Favorite Color- PINK! My students all check to make sure I have pink on in some way, shape or form everyday!
G: Gummy Bears or Worms- Worms for sure!
H: Hometown- Chubbuck, ID
I: Favorite Indulgence- Chocolate! Anyone seeing a pattern?
J: January or July- I would have to say January. I don't do heat!
K: Kids- Nope, but I love them!!
L: Life is not complete without- Family and the gospel
M: Marriage Date- September 24. 2004
N: Number of Brothers and Sisters- This can be a tricky question. 1 biological brother, Drew. "Adopted: 1 brother, 3 Sisters In laws: 3 bros, 3 Sisters
O: Oranges or apples- Apples. I don't like oranges, except the cuties. :)
P: Phobia or Fears- This seems a little crazy, but since being married my biggest fear is someone coming into my house and killing me. Not sure what brought that on. I also don't do well in large crowds of people!
Q: Quote- "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." (make famous by Nelson Mandela)
R: Reasons to smile- I have a husband who loves me unconditionally, the Gospel is true, my puppy is so darn cute!
S: Superman or wonder woman- I know it should be girl power, but I am gonna have to say Superman!
T: Tag 4 people-Kymber, Liz, Criscell, Lisa (how do you pick just 4??? If you are reading this, consider yourself tagged)
U: Unknown Fact about me-I love stupid reality TV shows (sometimes) like The Real World and America's Next Top Model....things that do nothing for your brain!
V: Vegetable- Raw cauliflower and broccoli
W: Worst Habit- Not taking time to cool off when my temper starts to flair
X: X-ray or ultrasound- Definitely ultrasound!!
Y: Your favorite food- Can anyone guess? Yup, chocolate! I love a good Alfredo too!!
Z: Zodiac Sign- Gemini
A: Attached or Single- Attached . . . Married for 3 1/2 years to the cutest boy ever!
B: Best Friend- Matt of course!
C: Cake or Pie- I am going to have to say cake, preferably chocolate!
D: Day of Choice- Saturday. We both have it off and get to spend it together!
E: Essential Items- Cell phone, computer, a good book
F: Favorite Color- PINK! My students all check to make sure I have pink on in some way, shape or form everyday!
G: Gummy Bears or Worms- Worms for sure!
H: Hometown- Chubbuck, ID
I: Favorite Indulgence- Chocolate! Anyone seeing a pattern?
J: January or July- I would have to say January. I don't do heat!
K: Kids- Nope, but I love them!!
L: Life is not complete without- Family and the gospel
M: Marriage Date- September 24. 2004
N: Number of Brothers and Sisters- This can be a tricky question. 1 biological brother, Drew. "Adopted: 1 brother, 3 Sisters In laws: 3 bros, 3 Sisters
O: Oranges or apples- Apples. I don't like oranges, except the cuties. :)
P: Phobia or Fears- This seems a little crazy, but since being married my biggest fear is someone coming into my house and killing me. Not sure what brought that on. I also don't do well in large crowds of people!
Q: Quote- "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." (make famous by Nelson Mandela)
R: Reasons to smile- I have a husband who loves me unconditionally, the Gospel is true, my puppy is so darn cute!
S: Superman or wonder woman- I know it should be girl power, but I am gonna have to say Superman!
T: Tag 4 people-Kymber, Liz, Criscell, Lisa (how do you pick just 4??? If you are reading this, consider yourself tagged)
U: Unknown Fact about me-I love stupid reality TV shows (sometimes) like The Real World and America's Next Top Model....things that do nothing for your brain!
V: Vegetable- Raw cauliflower and broccoli
W: Worst Habit- Not taking time to cool off when my temper starts to flair
X: X-ray or ultrasound- Definitely ultrasound!!
Y: Your favorite food- Can anyone guess? Yup, chocolate! I love a good Alfredo too!!
Z: Zodiac Sign- Gemini
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Adoption analogy
This is a touching analogy about adoption. My hope is to bring an awareness to others about the joys, hardships and blessings of adoption. We are not going through LDS Social Services. We felt this was not the path for us. We have a private social worker who has a few leads for us, but we just wait. We try not to get our hopes up because we just never know. We can't buy anything because we don't know when it will be or who it will be....we pray and hope that whatever is supposed to happen, will. We keep our faith alive. And we wait....
ADOPTION IS LIKE AUSTRALIA
Deciding to have a baby is like planning a trip to Australia. You've heard it's a wonderful place, you've read many guide-books and feel certain you're ready to go. Everyone you know has traveled there by plane. They say it can be a turbulent flight with occasional rough landings, but you can look forward to being pampered on the trip. So you go to the airport and ask the ticket agent for a ticket to Australia. All around you, excited people are boarding planes for Australia. It seems there is no seat for you; you'll have to wait for the next flight. Impatient, but anticipating a wonderful trip, you wait --- and wait --- and wait. Flights to Australia continue to come and go. People say silly things like, "Relax. You'll get on a flight soon." Other people actually get on a plane and then cancel their trip, to which you cry, "It's no fair!" After a long time the ticket agent tells you, "I'm sorry, we're not going to be able to get you on a plane to Australia. Perhaps you should think about going by boat." "By BOAT!" you say. "Going by boat will take a very long time and it costs a great deal of money. I really had my heart set on going by plane." So you go home and think about not going to Australia at all. You wonder if Australia will be as beautiful if you approach it by sea rather than air. But you have long dreamed of this wonderful place, and finally you decide to travel by boat. It is a long trip, many months over many rough seas. No one pampers you. You wonder if you will ever see Australia. Meanwhile, your friends and family have flown back and forth to Australia two or three more times, marveling about each trip. Then one glorious day, the boat docks in Australia. It is more exquisite than you ever imagined, and the beauty is magnified by your long days at sea. You have made many wonderful friends during your voyage, and you find yourself comparing stories with others who also traveled by sea rather than by air. People continue to fly to Australia as often as they like, but you are able to travel only once, perhaps twice. Some say things like, "Oh, be glad you didn't fly. My flight was horrible; traveling by sea is so easy." You will always wonder what it would have been like to fly to Australia. Still, you know God blessed you with a special appreciation of Australia, and the beauty of Australia is not in the way you get there, but in the place itself.
ADOPTION IS LIKE AUSTRALIA
Deciding to have a baby is like planning a trip to Australia. You've heard it's a wonderful place, you've read many guide-books and feel certain you're ready to go. Everyone you know has traveled there by plane. They say it can be a turbulent flight with occasional rough landings, but you can look forward to being pampered on the trip. So you go to the airport and ask the ticket agent for a ticket to Australia. All around you, excited people are boarding planes for Australia. It seems there is no seat for you; you'll have to wait for the next flight. Impatient, but anticipating a wonderful trip, you wait --- and wait --- and wait. Flights to Australia continue to come and go. People say silly things like, "Relax. You'll get on a flight soon." Other people actually get on a plane and then cancel their trip, to which you cry, "It's no fair!" After a long time the ticket agent tells you, "I'm sorry, we're not going to be able to get you on a plane to Australia. Perhaps you should think about going by boat." "By BOAT!" you say. "Going by boat will take a very long time and it costs a great deal of money. I really had my heart set on going by plane." So you go home and think about not going to Australia at all. You wonder if Australia will be as beautiful if you approach it by sea rather than air. But you have long dreamed of this wonderful place, and finally you decide to travel by boat. It is a long trip, many months over many rough seas. No one pampers you. You wonder if you will ever see Australia. Meanwhile, your friends and family have flown back and forth to Australia two or three more times, marveling about each trip. Then one glorious day, the boat docks in Australia. It is more exquisite than you ever imagined, and the beauty is magnified by your long days at sea. You have made many wonderful friends during your voyage, and you find yourself comparing stories with others who also traveled by sea rather than by air. People continue to fly to Australia as often as they like, but you are able to travel only once, perhaps twice. Some say things like, "Oh, be glad you didn't fly. My flight was horrible; traveling by sea is so easy." You will always wonder what it would have been like to fly to Australia. Still, you know God blessed you with a special appreciation of Australia, and the beauty of Australia is not in the way you get there, but in the place itself.
I've Been Tagged!!
1. WHAT ARE FOUR JOBS THAT YOU HAVE HAD IN LIFE?
Wife (that is a full time job, right??), Massage Therapist, Photographer, Teacher
2. WHAT ARE FOUR PLACES WHERE YOU HAVE BEEN?
Canada, NYC, Washington DC, Virginia
3. WHAT ARE FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS?
Fettachini Alfredo, anything Chocolate!!, Salad, Pretzel Salad
4. WHO ARE FOUR PEOPLE YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER?
1-Jesus Christ...I want to be able to know and recognize Him when I see Him again
2-Joseph Smith 3-My husband (We don't get a lot of time together and I love the times where I just get to talk to him) 4-Stephanie Myers (the lady who wrote the Twilight series)
5. FOUR REASONS I LOVE BEING ME?
1-I have an amazing family, my biological family, my in-laws and my "adopted" family (you know who you are!) 2-I have so many amazing friends who love me and always check up on me 3-I have such an amazing job where I get to teach my passion of massage to others! 4-I have a great husband that loves me and cares for me
6. WHAT ARE FOUR CLASSES YOU WISH WERE OFFERED TO YOU THAT YOU COULD PARTICIPATE IN RIGHT NOW?
I would defiantly LOVE to learn more about my photography! 2-Scrapbooking 3-Cooking
4-Sewing
7. WHO ARE FOUR FRIENDS OR RELATIVES THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO TAG?
Lisa, Sarah, Liz, Kym
TAG YOU'RE IT!!!
Wife (that is a full time job, right??), Massage Therapist, Photographer, Teacher
2. WHAT ARE FOUR PLACES WHERE YOU HAVE BEEN?
Canada, NYC, Washington DC, Virginia
3. WHAT ARE FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS?
Fettachini Alfredo, anything Chocolate!!, Salad, Pretzel Salad
4. WHO ARE FOUR PEOPLE YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER?
1-Jesus Christ...I want to be able to know and recognize Him when I see Him again
2-Joseph Smith 3-My husband (We don't get a lot of time together and I love the times where I just get to talk to him) 4-Stephanie Myers (the lady who wrote the Twilight series)
5. FOUR REASONS I LOVE BEING ME?
1-I have an amazing family, my biological family, my in-laws and my "adopted" family (you know who you are!) 2-I have so many amazing friends who love me and always check up on me 3-I have such an amazing job where I get to teach my passion of massage to others! 4-I have a great husband that loves me and cares for me
6. WHAT ARE FOUR CLASSES YOU WISH WERE OFFERED TO YOU THAT YOU COULD PARTICIPATE IN RIGHT NOW?
I would defiantly LOVE to learn more about my photography! 2-Scrapbooking 3-Cooking
4-Sewing
7. WHO ARE FOUR FRIENDS OR RELATIVES THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO TAG?
Lisa, Sarah, Liz, Kym
TAG YOU'RE IT!!!
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