So, I was able to take some time this morning to get my other blog up and rolling. Again, please don't feel obligated to visit. A lot of it is going to be my personal journal and journey. Thank you all for you love and support. I will keep this blog updated with our everyday life. Love ya!!
http://brandysinfertilityjourney.blogspot.com/
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
A New Blog
This is a decision I have been thinking about for a long time. I have pondered back and forth in my head what it would look like, if I really want to manage two blogs, what would be the implications, etc. but the time has come.
A lot of times when I post about my inferility journey here, I feel like I am doing a lot of whining and complaining, when that was not my intention at all! I wonder, who would really want to read about my rants and raves? So, I have made a personal decision to start another blog strickly about my journey through infertilityland. It will be more of a personal journal for me with links to others going through the same journey. I will still keep this blog and be better about updating more regularly, with my "happy news" that goes on in our everyday lives. I am working on getting it up and ready and as soon as I do, I will post a link if you want to read.
Thank you for your love and support. I feel like this is really for me and a place I can openly share about my struggles. Thank you! I love you all dearly!!
A lot of times when I post about my inferility journey here, I feel like I am doing a lot of whining and complaining, when that was not my intention at all! I wonder, who would really want to read about my rants and raves? So, I have made a personal decision to start another blog strickly about my journey through infertilityland. It will be more of a personal journal for me with links to others going through the same journey. I will still keep this blog and be better about updating more regularly, with my "happy news" that goes on in our everyday lives. I am working on getting it up and ready and as soon as I do, I will post a link if you want to read.
Thank you for your love and support. I feel like this is really for me and a place I can openly share about my struggles. Thank you! I love you all dearly!!
Christmas, just a little late
Christmas was fantastic! We love being with Matt's family, and how excited we were to have so many wonderful people to share in the day with. The Celebration started on December 23 because Ben, Angela and the girls were going to surprise Angela's mom in Utah for Christmas. It was like having two Christmases!
Of course, I am human and love recieving, but the true joy in Christmas comes in watching the excitement of the little ones, so to see my two nieces open their gifts was more than I could ask for.
Hannah and her new dress Nana made with her puppy and bed that Grandpa hand-made behind.
Reagan got a purple princess dress!
My beautifiul princesses!
On Christmas Eve my Mother-in-law always has an amazing spread of food, and this year was no differant! Nannie and Grandpa, Matt and I, their family, and about 3 other families were there. 21 people in all!! Everhthing is decorated precisely and of course, everything tastes delicious! But of course, the real fun starts after dinner! Dad reads from the Bible and Book of Mormon the account of Christ's birth. Every year, something else stands out to me. Because of where I am, I really felt for and sympathized with Mary. What a strong woman, and I know she had some divine helpers for her birth! From there, we act out the Nativity. It is always quite the production! Dad is always the donkey (poor donkey....Mary can't even ride him anymore!) Matt and his brothers are always the "3 Wise Guys," but with 2 of the wise guys missing this year, improvisions had to be made. I have to say that the step-ins were pretty good. A little more serious, but they did great! With so many people, Carolyn (she always write the play) had to add some pretty crazy parts. Mom and I were the manger. Boy, did my arm get tired! :)
After the play, we "act" out the 12 days of Christmas. The funny one this year was 6 geese a laying....looked a little more like 6 constipated geese to me, but quite the little play!
Christmas morning is such a joy with 4 young ones still at home. Nannie actually let us sleep in until about 6:30. That in itself was a treat! What a morning! The rest of the day was full of love and movie watching and snacking on treats!
Molly and I baking with her Easy Bake Oven. Brought back so many memories!
Nannie made the two vetren's special quilts. They are absolutely beautiful!
Of course, I am human and love recieving, but the true joy in Christmas comes in watching the excitement of the little ones, so to see my two nieces open their gifts was more than I could ask for.
Hannah and her new dress Nana made with her puppy and bed that Grandpa hand-made behind.
Reagan got a purple princess dress!
My beautifiul princesses!
On Christmas Eve my Mother-in-law always has an amazing spread of food, and this year was no differant! Nannie and Grandpa, Matt and I, their family, and about 3 other families were there. 21 people in all!! Everhthing is decorated precisely and of course, everything tastes delicious! But of course, the real fun starts after dinner! Dad reads from the Bible and Book of Mormon the account of Christ's birth. Every year, something else stands out to me. Because of where I am, I really felt for and sympathized with Mary. What a strong woman, and I know she had some divine helpers for her birth! From there, we act out the Nativity. It is always quite the production! Dad is always the donkey (poor donkey....Mary can't even ride him anymore!) Matt and his brothers are always the "3 Wise Guys," but with 2 of the wise guys missing this year, improvisions had to be made. I have to say that the step-ins were pretty good. A little more serious, but they did great! With so many people, Carolyn (she always write the play) had to add some pretty crazy parts. Mom and I were the manger. Boy, did my arm get tired! :)
After the play, we "act" out the 12 days of Christmas. The funny one this year was 6 geese a laying....looked a little more like 6 constipated geese to me, but quite the little play!
Christmas morning is such a joy with 4 young ones still at home. Nannie actually let us sleep in until about 6:30. That in itself was a treat! What a morning! The rest of the day was full of love and movie watching and snacking on treats!
Molly and I baking with her Easy Bake Oven. Brought back so many memories!
Nannie made the two vetren's special quilts. They are absolutely beautiful!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Merry Christmas!
This is such a special time of year in which we celebrate the birth of Our Savior, Jesus Christ. How grateful I am to Heavenly Father for sending His son be born in such humble circumstances of a virgin and a man who would raise him as his own. Jesus came into the world on a sacred, silent night in a manger. I often ponder about Mary and what she was feeling, what she went through. There were no doctors, nothing hygienic about the situation. Surrounded by animals and with her sweet husband Joseph, Mary gave birth to our Savior, our Redeemer Jesus Christ. How grateful I am to Mary and Joseph for trusting Heavenly Father's plan for them, and for this little tiny babe, who would grow up to be something more than I am sure they could even fathom.
Last night we had part of our Christmas celebration early because my nieces and their parents are flying over to spend Christmas with her family. Part of our Christmas tradition is for all of the returned Missionaries to share their testimonies in the language they spoke. Every single one of them said something about the fact that without the Atonement, the birth of Jesus Christ would have been just another baby born into the world. There is so much I need to learn and understand about the Atonement of Jesus Christ, but I know that He lived and died for me. I know that I am a child of God and He loves me. There are times I question things, but I know it is true.
I am so grateful for my testimony of Jesus Christ and the love He brings to me. I know I am the person I am today by and large because of the Atonement and His infinite love and grace. I wish you all a very Merry Christmas! I am so grateful to have such amazing, wonderful friends who care so deeply and purely! May your Christmas be filled with love, laughter and the spirit of our Savior!
Last night we had part of our Christmas celebration early because my nieces and their parents are flying over to spend Christmas with her family. Part of our Christmas tradition is for all of the returned Missionaries to share their testimonies in the language they spoke. Every single one of them said something about the fact that without the Atonement, the birth of Jesus Christ would have been just another baby born into the world. There is so much I need to learn and understand about the Atonement of Jesus Christ, but I know that He lived and died for me. I know that I am a child of God and He loves me. There are times I question things, but I know it is true.
I am so grateful for my testimony of Jesus Christ and the love He brings to me. I know I am the person I am today by and large because of the Atonement and His infinite love and grace. I wish you all a very Merry Christmas! I am so grateful to have such amazing, wonderful friends who care so deeply and purely! May your Christmas be filled with love, laughter and the spirit of our Savior!
Monday, December 22, 2008
The Mall Santa
Your thoughts, your prayers, your love...it has all been so greatly appreciated! I can't even begin to tell you what it all means to me. Everytime I write a post where I think, "This is stupid. Why would anyone want to read my whining and complaining about my infertility?" you all write such beautiful things. Thank you.
I have been following the blogs of several women, many whom are LDS, struggling with infertility. I realize that I am only at the beginning of my journey. I cannot even comprehend what they have been through. IUIs, IVFs, medications, acupuncture, supplements, the list goes on and on. Many are terms I have never even heard of. So I am making a commitment to myself, to my husband, to my future children (wherever they are) that I will be healthier, I will do everything I can to get them here. I will visit the OB/GYN again in January to continue fertility testing. (We had to stop after getting pregnant and then miscarrying in September).
Everyday is hard for a woman dealing with infertility, but holidays are particularly difficult! I was in the mall Saturday with my Mother and Sister-in-law and there was a mall Santa. I looked at him with the little children and my heart ached. I saw a woman with triplets, one with twins, another with six children at her side....I am so happy for them all, please don't get me wrong. I wanted to march myself right up to the bearded man in red and tell him that I wanted a baby for Christmas; one that cries, spits up, poops, never sleeps, I would take it all! But there is someone greater than Santa Claus, and that is Heavenly Father. I HAVE to believe that He has a plan greater!
I have been following the blogs of several women, many whom are LDS, struggling with infertility. I realize that I am only at the beginning of my journey. I cannot even comprehend what they have been through. IUIs, IVFs, medications, acupuncture, supplements, the list goes on and on. Many are terms I have never even heard of. So I am making a commitment to myself, to my husband, to my future children (wherever they are) that I will be healthier, I will do everything I can to get them here. I will visit the OB/GYN again in January to continue fertility testing. (We had to stop after getting pregnant and then miscarrying in September).
Everyday is hard for a woman dealing with infertility, but holidays are particularly difficult! I was in the mall Saturday with my Mother and Sister-in-law and there was a mall Santa. I looked at him with the little children and my heart ached. I saw a woman with triplets, one with twins, another with six children at her side....I am so happy for them all, please don't get me wrong. I wanted to march myself right up to the bearded man in red and tell him that I wanted a baby for Christmas; one that cries, spits up, poops, never sleeps, I would take it all! But there is someone greater than Santa Claus, and that is Heavenly Father. I HAVE to believe that He has a plan greater!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Late night thoughts and ramblings
I have contemplated many times about starting a blog just about my infertility struggles, and it is definitely something I am still pondering. My dear friend said I should just add it to this blog because people want to know what is going on, but I always feel like I am whining and venting.
I feel so compelled to write tonight, despite the fact that I am tired and I have a 14 hour day tomorrow. I'm not really sure what I am supposed to say, just that I need to express some things that have been on my mind as of late.
Please, my dear friends, do not be scared to share with me about your joys, your successes in getting pregnant and the amazing things your children do. I am the happiest, proudest aunt in the entire world and those two little girls make my life worth living everyday! I love hearing of your excitement and everything happening in your lives. Is it hard? You bet! But the thought of being left out, or the thought you worrying about offending me hurts me the most. Please, continue to share and let me rejoice with you!
My heart aches. I try to stay happy and upbeat, and I feel like maybe this post is happening because I haven't had a really good cry for a couple of weeks. Perhaps this is the catalyst for it to happen. There really isn't a handbook on feelings and what we are supposed to feel during different struggles in our lives. So I would encourage everyone, despite whatever you are going through, to just let it come. Don't hold back.
I know this is completely random, just things that have been on my mind as of late, but I would like to share a bit of a quote from a fellow LDS blogger also dealing with infertility issues.
"The next time any of us sees a sister in crisis, I hope we will shut our mouths and open our arms. Share your opinion if need be, but cushion it with love and compassion. A hand to hold is worth a thousand pieces of advice. "
Sending my love! Thank you for opening your arms!
I feel so compelled to write tonight, despite the fact that I am tired and I have a 14 hour day tomorrow. I'm not really sure what I am supposed to say, just that I need to express some things that have been on my mind as of late.
Please, my dear friends, do not be scared to share with me about your joys, your successes in getting pregnant and the amazing things your children do. I am the happiest, proudest aunt in the entire world and those two little girls make my life worth living everyday! I love hearing of your excitement and everything happening in your lives. Is it hard? You bet! But the thought of being left out, or the thought you worrying about offending me hurts me the most. Please, continue to share and let me rejoice with you!
My heart aches. I try to stay happy and upbeat, and I feel like maybe this post is happening because I haven't had a really good cry for a couple of weeks. Perhaps this is the catalyst for it to happen. There really isn't a handbook on feelings and what we are supposed to feel during different struggles in our lives. So I would encourage everyone, despite whatever you are going through, to just let it come. Don't hold back.
I know this is completely random, just things that have been on my mind as of late, but I would like to share a bit of a quote from a fellow LDS blogger also dealing with infertility issues.
"The next time any of us sees a sister in crisis, I hope we will shut our mouths and open our arms. Share your opinion if need be, but cushion it with love and compassion. A hand to hold is worth a thousand pieces of advice. "
Sending my love! Thank you for opening your arms!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
A video that will make you Drool
I was listening to Josh Groban at my desk yesterday while grading papers. A student came by and we both drooled for a minute. Then she told me of a You Tube video that had Josh Groban and Michael Buble in it, two of my favorite artists!! I wanted to share it all with you. (Thanks Kym for showing me how. I don't know where I would be without your computer expertise!! Love ya)
ps. remember to pause the pretty Christmas music on the side. I always forget that part. :)
ps. remember to pause the pretty Christmas music on the side. I always forget that part. :)
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