I realize I haven't done a lot of updating. I think part of it is that I am waiting for something amazing to happen, and it just doesn't seem to be. We have put bids on three different houses and been outbid every single time. This last one was very upsetting because we walked into the house and felt so "at home." I could picture my little boys throwing parachute men off the staircase (and even jumping off and breaking an arm), late night book reading in my master suite, birthday parties in the back yard...we even overbid on the home by $7,000, but the house went for $25,000 more than the listing price. We didn't stand a chance. I even bought furniture, we were so certain and had such a great feeling about this one! I guess the furniture will really go in any home. :)
So, we have some frustration around the house. Thank goodness for an amazing realtor. She is in my in-laws ward and she said, "Maybe we are looking in the wrong places. Heavenly Father must have a special place for you prepared and we just need to find where that is." She said that her family would fast for us this Sunday to find the place where we needed to be. We have asked all of our family to do the same so we may "find the place which God for us prepared." In the meantime, we are so grateful to my in-laws for letting us bunk with them. I love them dearly!!! They are incredible people, but I think I am ready for my own place. :)
Somewhere around eighth grade I was diagnosed with clinical depression. It isn't something I am extremely open about because of the stigmas that so many people have about depression. One thing I am certain is that I am not faking it (as I was told so many times). I am seen by so many as a typically happy person, and I am! But things have been so hard lately. I try to stay positive, I try to keep the faith. I don't use my depression as an excuse as to why I have been so down lately. I am working hard.
Thank you for all of your kind words and support! I am so blessed to have such amazing friends and family! I love you all so dearly and I miss you!