Thursday, May 29, 2008
I get so very frustrated with this entire thing. But amidst it all, I TRY to stay positive. I have a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ! Both mine and Matt's patriarchal blessings say we will be parents. I guess that is the naivety of youth. You grow up seeing women pregnant and young babies being blessed and so on and so forth. I had no idea I would ever have a hard time getting pregnant. I keep questioning God on the injustices: I am a pretty good woman trying to do the right things, and I can't get pregnant. Young girls slip up once, women in prison, the woman with 20 kids, pregnant. Why?? Why not me?? I don't know if I will ever understand or comprehend, but I know there is a plan greater than me. I know I am being watched over and loved.
Thank you all for your prayers! I can't even tell you what it has meant to me! I have felt so much comfort and support over these last two weeks! I know I would not have been able to be so strong, so comforted, so at peace with things without the power of prayer! Thank you again and again!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
My Mother-in-law called about 30 minutes ago. She said they were all at church and Dad's phone went off. Typically, they don't even take their cell phones to church, but it just so happened it was in his pocket and even on. Well, it was our social worker with a lead on a baby. Mom left church to call us, it was that big of a deal. So, here is the scoop:
The mom is going back to jail on a probation violation. She is pregnant with her third child due in 6 weeks, but she has high blood pressure so there is a very good chance the baby will be born early. The Grandmother is already raising her two previous children and will not raise a third. The mom does not want social services to come in and take the baby. The thing that really scares me is the mother was a methamphetamine user while pregnant. (Even though it has only been about 30 minutes, I already feel like a somewhat expert on meth and babies.) We have been on the phone with our social worker and the lady who works out at the prison since. This looks so promising, and I am so scared! As I said, I was getting complacent in life. I was planning a trip to Europe next year. I thought I had all of my ducks in a row.
If I am supposed to be the mother of this child, God will prepare a way. So many of you have said, "Wow Brandy. You are so brave." But I can tell you this much, I am not feeling brave right now. I am scared!! Please pray that whatever is supposed to happen, will happen. And please pray for the mother of this precious little one that she may have an open mind and be able to make the right decisions for her and baby, whatever that is right now. Thank you for your constant support and friendship! I love you all!!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
I was introduced to this a few months ago, but just forgot to post it. I remember when I was younger I promised myself I would never say the corny things my Mom did, but I find myself saying them constantly! What a funny day when you wake up and realize, you have turned into your Mom! Have a great day everyone, and enjoy a laugh on me! Love ya!
A laugh is a smile that bursts. ~Mary H. Waldrip
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Grams: So, what is new?
B: Nothing. We have a pretty boring life, same stuff, differant day.
Grams: Honey, you don't know what boring is until you have our lives!
I love my Grams soo much!!! So here is an update on my week, very ordinary. Just the way I like it!
One of my favorite pics of me and my Mommy! (I'm pretty sure she is going to shoot me for this one!!)
A: Attached or Single- Attached . . . Married for 3 1/2 years to the cutest boy ever!
B: Best Friend- Matt of course!
C: Cake or Pie- I am going to have to say cake, preferably chocolate!
D: Day of Choice- Saturday. We both have it off and get to spend it together!
E: Essential Items- Cell phone, computer, a good book
F: Favorite Color- PINK! My students all check to make sure I have pink on in some way, shape or form everyday!
G: Gummy Bears or Worms- Worms for sure!
H: Hometown- Chubbuck, ID
I: Favorite Indulgence- Chocolate! Anyone seeing a pattern?
J: January or July- I would have to say January. I don't do heat!
K: Kids- Nope, but I love them!!
L: Life is not complete without- Family and the gospel
M: Marriage Date- September 24. 2004
N: Number of Brothers and Sisters- This can be a tricky question. 1 biological brother, Drew. "Adopted: 1 brother, 3 Sisters In laws: 3 bros, 3 Sisters
O: Oranges or apples- Apples. I don't like oranges, except the cuties. :)
P: Phobia or Fears- This seems a little crazy, but since being married my biggest fear is someone coming into my house and killing me. Not sure what brought that on. I also don't do well in large crowds of people!
Q: Quote- "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." (make famous by Nelson Mandela)
R: Reasons to smile- I have a husband who loves me unconditionally, the Gospel is true, my puppy is so darn cute!
S: Superman or wonder woman- I know it should be girl power, but I am gonna have to say Superman!
T: Tag 4 people-Kymber, Liz, Criscell, Lisa (how do you pick just 4??? If you are reading this, consider yourself tagged)
U: Unknown Fact about me-I love stupid reality TV shows (sometimes) like The Real World and America's Next Top Model....things that do nothing for your brain!
V: Vegetable- Raw cauliflower and broccoli
W: Worst Habit- Not taking time to cool off when my temper starts to flair
X: X-ray or ultrasound- Definitely ultrasound!!
Y: Your favorite food- Can anyone guess? Yup, chocolate! I love a good Alfredo too!!
Z: Zodiac Sign- Gemini