Thursday, May 29, 2008

No news

It has been nearly two weeks since I last posted about a possibility of an adoption. I have been waiting to post for exciting news, but nothing. Our social worker called last Sunday only to tell us 1-the mother is still in the hospital because of her high blood pressure. I don't feel very promising about this entire situation, but we try to keep our hopes up without keeping our hopes up. 2-there is another mother possibly wanting to adopt her baby out, but she is only 6 weeks along.

I get so very frustrated with this entire thing. But amidst it all, I TRY to stay positive. I have a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ! Both mine and Matt's patriarchal blessings say we will be parents. I guess that is the naivety of youth. You grow up seeing women pregnant and young babies being blessed and so on and so forth. I had no idea I would ever have a hard time getting pregnant. I keep questioning God on the injustices: I am a pretty good woman trying to do the right things, and I can't get pregnant. Young girls slip up once, women in prison, the woman with 20 kids, pregnant. Why?? Why not me?? I don't know if I will ever understand or comprehend, but I know there is a plan greater than me. I know I am being watched over and loved.

Thank you all for your prayers! I can't even tell you what it has meant to me! I have felt so much comfort and support over these last two weeks! I know I would not have been able to be so strong, so comforted, so at peace with things without the power of prayer! Thank you again and again!

4 comments:

Get Bent said...

Hang in there! I can't even imagine the emotional rollercoaster you & Matt are on.
Something good will come along. This is a trial, and...well yeah- you will be blessed by your endurance. My thoughts are with you. :)

Adam & Kym said...

I found a quote that I think you should put on your fridge:

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much! -Mother Theresa

I sure love you, I know your heartache!

Kristina said...

Your strength is amazing to me. All I can say is just keep doing what you are doing and the Lord will bless you. We love and pray for you always.

Lind Family said...

Miss Brandy, I love you to pieces! I know the Lord will bless you two with a child. We just have to remember that it will be on his time and not ours. Darn it! Keep strong and make sure you get some priesthood blessings! They totally help.