It has been nearly two weeks since I last posted about a possibility of an adoption. I have been waiting to post for exciting news, but nothing. Our social worker called last Sunday only to tell us 1-the mother is still in the hospital because of her high blood pressure. I don't feel very promising about this entire situation, but we try to keep our hopes up without keeping our hopes up. 2-there is another mother possibly wanting to adopt her baby out, but she is only 6 weeks along.
I get so very frustrated with this entire thing. But amidst it all, I TRY to stay positive. I have a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ! Both mine and Matt's patriarchal blessings say we will be parents. I guess that is the naivety of youth. You grow up seeing women pregnant and young babies being blessed and so on and so forth. I had no idea I would ever have a hard time getting pregnant. I keep questioning God on the injustices: I am a pretty good woman trying to do the right things, and I can't get pregnant. Young girls slip up once, women in prison, the woman with 20 kids, pregnant. Why?? Why not me?? I don't know if I will ever understand or comprehend, but I know there is a plan greater than me. I know I am being watched over and loved.
Thank you all for your prayers! I can't even tell you what it has meant to me! I have felt so much comfort and support over these last two weeks! I know I would not have been able to be so strong, so comforted, so at peace with things without the power of prayer! Thank you again and again!