Thursday, May 29, 2008

No news

It has been nearly two weeks since I last posted about a possibility of an adoption. I have been waiting to post for exciting news, but nothing. Our social worker called last Sunday only to tell us 1-the mother is still in the hospital because of her high blood pressure. I don't feel very promising about this entire situation, but we try to keep our hopes up without keeping our hopes up. 2-there is another mother possibly wanting to adopt her baby out, but she is only 6 weeks along.

I get so very frustrated with this entire thing. But amidst it all, I TRY to stay positive. I have a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ! Both mine and Matt's patriarchal blessings say we will be parents. I guess that is the naivety of youth. You grow up seeing women pregnant and young babies being blessed and so on and so forth. I had no idea I would ever have a hard time getting pregnant. I keep questioning God on the injustices: I am a pretty good woman trying to do the right things, and I can't get pregnant. Young girls slip up once, women in prison, the woman with 20 kids, pregnant. Why?? Why not me?? I don't know if I will ever understand or comprehend, but I know there is a plan greater than me. I know I am being watched over and loved.

Thank you all for your prayers! I can't even tell you what it has meant to me! I have felt so much comfort and support over these last two weeks! I know I would not have been able to be so strong, so comforted, so at peace with things without the power of prayer! Thank you again and again!


Get Bent said...

Hang in there! I can't even imagine the emotional rollercoaster you & Matt are on.
Something good will come along. This is a trial, and...well yeah- you will be blessed by your endurance. My thoughts are with you. :)

Adam & Kym said...

I found a quote that I think you should put on your fridge:

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much! -Mother Theresa

I sure love you, I know your heartache!

Kristina said...

Your strength is amazing to me. All I can say is just keep doing what you are doing and the Lord will bless you. We love and pray for you always.

Lind Family said...

Miss Brandy, I love you to pieces! I know the Lord will bless you two with a child. We just have to remember that it will be on his time and not ours. Darn it! Keep strong and make sure you get some priesthood blessings! They totally help.