Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Happy Birthday and Testimony

Sometime last week I got a fairly long post all laid out, ready to go and as I hit "Publish" I was told Blogspot was down. I didn't think to save it, I just got mad and deleted it. So, here I am again, ready to post...
Last Wednesday was Matt's 29th Birthday! It tickles me funny to think he will be 30 next year!! Matt is my everything, my reason for living, my light, my love. I am eternally grateful for him and his patience with all of my shortcomings and quirks. Matt always tries to make my laugh and I am forever in love with his little kid smile. Matt is everything I dreamed of in a husband!! He is a worthy Priesthood holdler, he loves me exactly for who I am, he is a provider and a nurturer, he loves children and wants a family; I can even wear his suit coat in church when I get cold! ( one of my silly teenage pre-requisites!) I love you hunny, more than words can explain! I thank Heavenly Father daily for you and I am so grateful I get to spend eternity with you! Para Sempre meu amor!

There really hasn't been too much going on. Work has been crazy for me with teachers coming and going, papers to grade, and some special needs students. I really truly love what I do however! On a happier note, we have started round two of fertility testing, so we will see where this leads us to. A wonderful woman in my ward who has been TTC (trying to conceive) as well, spoke with me on Sunday. We share so many of the same feelings, heartaches, and thoughts. She shared with me a passage of scripture in John 9:2-3,
"And his disciples asked him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind?
Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him."
This really hit home. Neither of us have sinned. Neither of us in unworthy of the blessings of children. I have been given this trial to make known the glory of God, to find it within myself, help others to find that same glory, and to turn it all back to Heavenly Father. It doesn't make sitting through a baby blessing or watching pregnant women in the mall any easier, but it does put it into prospective for me! How grateful I am to a Heavenly Father who never gives up on me, who loves me despite all of my shortcomings and sends me encouragement when He knows I need it!

13 comments:

Lind Family said...

Good husbands are the best! I am so happy that you have one! Matt is awesome.
I'll keep you in my prayers. I love ya bunches Brandy!

Criscell said...

What a sweet post! Your husband sounds wonderful--just what you deserve--someone that treats you like the angel you are!

Good luck with round two! I'll be thinking about you!

Holly said...

Good luck with round two!! I'll be thinking of you!! I love you and miss you so much!!

Sure love ya!

The Adams family said...

I love the testimony. What a wonderful outlook to have. Your a amazing person and you are right... this has nothing to do with you! Glad to hear everything else is going well and tell your darling hubby happy birthday!

emiflute said...

I think that scripture is such an inspiring one. Thanks for sharing it and your thoughts on your current trial. I can already see the Lord is working through you and with you. Happy Birtday to you Hubby! Love Ya!

Melinda said...

I just realized that I don't think I ever shared with you something that Pres. Bednar said at a married student fireside, it would have been sometime July-Dec of 03, cuz we moved out of Rexburg after that, but he relayed to us that one of his son's and daughter-in-laws had at least up to that point, been struggling to have a family (I think it might have been his oldest) for some time. His son had called him, agonizing over it. It weighed so heavily on Pres. Bednar's mind that he asked Elder Eyring about it the next day, without disclosing the fact that it was his son, said "Elder Eyring, what would you say to a young couple who are struggling with the ability to have children" Elder Eyring paused and said "I do not know why it is some people's trial to not have children here on earth, and some people's trial to HAVE children here. But what I DO know is that families are eternal, and there WILL be families in the eternities."

I have no idea if that thought might help or not, but I felt like relaying it. I always love reading your blog! And happy belated birthday to Matt! I love the suit coat thing, btw! I do it too!

Liz said...

Your husband sounds great and I love that picture of him :) Good luck on the testing! Please keep us posted!

love ya!

The Bourne Family said...

Sweet Brandy! I hope that you're able to find some answers with your fertility testing. I know so many people who are having a difficult time conceiving and I can imagine that it is such a hard trial. It's not the same holding someone else's baby. All you want is to hold your own. I hope that you're able to conceive soon. I know you'll be a wonderful mother who will raise her children in righteousness.

Emily said...

Good luck with round 2 Brandy. I'll pray for the best. I've been thinking about you a lot. There are several sisters in my ward who are dealing with this same situation. I think it's easy to feel like it's your fault. People will often say, "If you just have more faith this will happen or that will happen." I've wondered about that because sometimes you do have faith but that thing still doesn't happen. I found an awesome talk about that subject that I used for a lesson this month. It's called "But If Not" by Dennis E Simmons in the May 2004 Ensign. I would definitely recommend it. Thanks for your testimony and your example of faith and positive attitude. Sure love ya!

Rawlings Family said...

I love having Chris' suit coat! Dear you must be a million times stronger than I to have Heavenly Father think you are strong enough for this. You are amazing! Really sometime we need to take a visit to see you (meet you)!

Kristen said...

I just wanted to let you know that you are one of the sweetest people I know! Thank you for your sweet comments on my blog. Good luck with your testing!

Eaton Family said...

Last year to say he's in his 20's - scary...I went through the same thing this year. I may just cry when I turn 30. haha. Anyway, best of luck - you're an inspiration to me!!

Adam and Kym said...

"Neither of us have sinned. Neither of us in unworthy of the blessings of children."

Thank you for this reminder. I need to post it on my fridge!!