Thursday, February 19, 2009

Sunbeams and Houses

It seems as if I have so much going on, yet nothing really to report on! We have been looking at houses recently and boy, is it crazy! I blogged about one house out in the country, but it was under contract before we even went to look at it, so that was out of our hands. We have found another one up by our stake center which we both really like and we put an offer on it. It is super popular and there have been a lot of bids on it, but hopefully we will hear back soon. I am realizing that I don't really like to keep my pocketbook so extremely tight, but I will do what has to be done.

Every house I go in, I start making it my own. I picture paint colors, where I would arrange the furniture (that we don't have!!), where I would hang the pictures. I find that I make up houses in my mind too. I take bits and pieces from one parts from another to form the house I want. It is quite a daunting, scary task! When we were signing the 14 pages of paperwork with our realtor to put an offer on the house, I nearly had an anxiety attack! I asked if there was any way just Matt could sign the paperwork because I don't do well with that sort of thing. She laughed and said I could sign power of attorney over to Matt to act in my name, but that would just be more paperwork. :) We all had a chuckle at that.

The Wednesday before Valentine's Day, I was finishing up some things before heading off to work. I hear little footsteps prancing up the stairs. I ran to the door and I was told to shut it. I stood on the other side and listened as little hands taped hearts to my door. I stood on the other side just crying! My little tiny Sunbeams (past and present) had "heart attacked" my door! It was so incredibly sweet! Later, one of my Sunbeams came by with a little bucket that was all decorated that says, "Reasons why we love U." Inside they had written little Valentines. There was also Riesen candies and inside each candy the children had mentioned something they loved about me. I about couldn't stand it! My door full of hearts! I love that they are all on the lower half of the door!
And the sweet bucket of love they gave me!

What an answer to my prayers! I have been questioning my faith and my Heavenly Father lately. I did something I know I shouldn't have, but I asked for a sign that He was aware of my INDIVIDUALLY! I have been feeling so left behind and pondering my self worth, and this was truly an answer to that prayer! I know that very strongly! So, thank you Lindee and everyone else involved! I love my little Sunbeams with all of my heart and my biggest hesitation in moving is leaving those little ones behind. I know that someone will come in and the kids won't even bat an eyelash, but it breaks my heart to even begin to think about it. Thank goodness for Sunbeams! This is my two favorite boys in the entire world on Valentine's Day! Matt and I made dinner at home and then he took me to the Stake Dance! I love him so very much and I am so grateful for his love! And Doogie is truly a blessing in our lives!


The Adams family said...

Man I hear you about looking for a house. It is such a long process! As for how you are feeling, I am so sorry that you are feeling like that. Last night we had a musical enchriment and we were signing the wonderful young women's song "walk talk your a daughter" and something really stuck me. It is in the coursus and it said "Be strong please remember who you are, try to understand your part of his great plan. His closer than you know reach up he will take your hand." For some reason those words really struck me. What a wonderful message, it is hard but we have to reach up for him. I hope your primary children reaffirmed your faith, that is what will get you trough your hard time! We sure love you

Suzie-Q said...

I think looking for an apartment day is the same way. I do the same thing trying to picture where everything is going to go and then either realize that it will never work or I absolutly love it and then get shot down when I find out that we can't have it.
that was so sweet of your little sunbeams to do that. My little Hailey is a sunbeam and I don't think she could have done something like that. Her teacher did send her a valentine though and she thought it was so amazing to get mail that was for her, oh she is a funny girl.

Good luck on your house hunting I hope something pops up for you that you love!!

Criscell said...

How exciting that you're looking for a house!! I'm so jealous. That's SOOOO sweet that your Sunbeams "heart attacked" you! I love the pictures.

Rawlings Family said...

How adorable of your sunbeams! Very awesome! I'm so glad you have someone close to give you love. We're sending it your way!

Melinda said...

SO sad about the house!! On the flip side, I got 2 comments from you and hit publish before I realized that it might be misleading to people who might not comment if they see there are already 5 comments, so I tried removing just one of your comments, but not the 'delete forever' box, and figured, hey if this doesn't work I can undo it! But it STILL says that there are 3 comments, even though one is gone, but I can't find where to re-publish the one I got rid of while trying to fix my mistake! Urgh. technology....I just hope people check my blog so I can get my 5 winners!! I'm already brain storming-and I'll probably get to them no later than the summer :-)

Liz said...

Awww, what a sweet thing your sunbeams did! Isn't that just the sweetest age? Sara is a sunbeam this year and I'm just LOVING this age! Sorry about the house :( Hopefully something bigger, better and cheaper comes along!! Good luck!