I have contemplated many times about starting a blog just about my infertility struggles, and it is definitely something I am still pondering. My dear friend said I should just add it to this blog because people want to know what is going on, but I always feel like I am whining and venting.
I feel so compelled to write tonight, despite the fact that I am tired and I have a 14 hour day tomorrow. I'm not really sure what I am supposed to say, just that I need to express some things that have been on my mind as of late.
Please, my dear friends, do not be scared to share with me about your joys, your successes in getting pregnant and the amazing things your children do. I am the happiest, proudest aunt in the entire world and those two little girls make my life worth living everyday! I love hearing of your excitement and everything happening in your lives. Is it hard? You bet! But the thought of being left out, or the thought you worrying about offending me hurts me the most. Please, continue to share and let me rejoice with you!
My heart aches. I try to stay happy and upbeat, and I feel like maybe this post is happening because I haven't had a really good cry for a couple of weeks. Perhaps this is the catalyst for it to happen. There really isn't a handbook on feelings and what we are supposed to feel during different struggles in our lives. So I would encourage everyone, despite whatever you are going through, to just let it come. Don't hold back.
I know this is completely random, just things that have been on my mind as of late, but I would like to share a bit of a quote from a fellow LDS blogger also dealing with infertility issues.
"The next time any of us sees a sister in crisis, I hope we will shut our mouths and open our arms. Share your opinion if need be, but cushion it with love and compassion. A hand to hold is worth a thousand pieces of advice. "
Sending my love! Thank you for opening your arms!