For some reason, I have dreaded turning 30 for quite sometime. Now that it is only a week away, I am really struggling. I am not sure why, but I have been! I made the comment to a friend the other day, "I am turning 30 and I haven't done anythings with me life!" He looked at my son and said, "Steven, I guess you are nothing." I stopped dead. in. my. tracks.
My son is absolutely my biggest accomplishment. He is my life. My world. My everything. I am ever so grateful to be his Mama and I try not to take a second of that for granted.
But it also got me thinking, "What else have I accomplished in my 30 years on this earth? So, I decided to sit down and compile a list, because maybe it will help me feel better about things.
In my 30 years I have:
-Survived Jr. High! (quite the accomplishment! I thought I would share a funny memory of Jr. High. I had a HUGE crush on a guy named Eric Jones (man, I pray he doesn't read this!) He sat in front of me in one of my classes. We were in the last row, so every Friday we had to bring in a piece of news that was happening locally, in the state or nationally. I knew Eric always forgot, so I always brought an extra piece of news for him to read and talk about. Man, I was whipped bad! But it got him talking to me!
-Played several differant instruments including the piano, saxophone and tuba.
-I was the drum major my Senior Year in High School. (I was also thinking about this a lot the other day. I struggled with depression a lot in my years and I was hospitalized for a week my junior year. I was voted the drum major my senior year. I feel very surprised that even after knowing what people knew about me, the trusted me enough to vote me in. How grateful I am for that experience!)
-I graduated college and was accepted to BYU-Idaho for the fall 2000 semester. I got a (very small) music scholarship. I was told I had a lot of potential. I am so grateful for those teachers seeing something in me that I couldn't see in myself. I LOVED college. I had enough old friends around me to make me feel comfortable, but I had enough new people around me that I could really find myself, discover myself for who I am. I was the band president. I really, REALLY LOVED band. I lived at the music building, and I really needed that socialization back then. Band was life!
-I went to and graduated from massage school.
-I have been a teacher for nearly 8 years. I really love teaching others a trade, a passion. It has been so rewarding watching students grow and develop a life skill.
-I married Steven Matthew Anderson in the temple, for time and all eternity in September 2004. He has been a rock. As much as I have fought him, bothered him, butted heads with him, he has been a trooper. He loves me despite all of my imperfections and he always tells me how wonderful I am. Someday, I may even believe him!